I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! -Just sayin'. :)
And hot chocolate. People say the way to a man's heart is through the stomach..well, mine is through hot chocolate. :) Especially the K-Dit's hot chocolate! YUM!

Anyways, um....wow. This is embarrassing. I don't know what to blog about...danged it!

But I love Christmas, as previously stated. I just love the feel of Christmas. There is so much magic, so much...hmm..I guess magic is the best word for it. It brings hope and laughter to most places that don't usually see that. As a kid, Christmas to me really was magical, and it really did mean Santa at night, no matter what Ash said. But it makes me look forward to next year. And next year, my year will be different. It will bring a better a different me, and I hope that one is for the better. And as I look back on this year, I see how STUPID I have been. I just see the mistakes piling up like no other. But what can ya do? You live and learn. And that's what I'm going to do. As Timon off The Lion King says (and yes, I watched that again this weekend, I think the 3rd time since I've been here). Anyway, he says, "Put your past behind ya. Hakuna Matata." He just means that your past is behind you. You can't change it, so don't dwell on it. And of course, no worries. :)

Merry Christmas to All <3

Angered/Saddened

First off, I HATE FINALS!! Sorry, I just wanted to get that out there. I love not having homework, but I am not the type of person to sit down for 6 hours straight and study. I didn't study in high school, and I guess old habits die hard.

Second, I am sort-of saddened today. You wanna know why? Well, I will tell you anyways. This is my 2nd to last blog..and I don't know if I like that! I love this, just kinda pouring out your heart and soul into something. I need to get a diary..Mom? I know you're reading this..so get a cute looking notebook and call it good. And I think I like this because someone actually has to listen to what I want to talk about. I mean, I just like people listening to my problems or hardships at the time, and it helps. It really does. And while being here, that is the main thing I have learned so far. People who only know you for about 3 months and from a different state really listen to you. Thank you, Ashley :). Ashley Dickinson Mom, not sister Ashley. Just f.y.i.

Disney Moves

I love Disney movies. I have always loved them, and I always will. But this weekend all I wanted to do was curl up with my blanket and some hot chocolate from the K-Dit, and watch The Lion King, or Toy Story, or The Land Before Time. But NO! I'm a college student who doesn't get enough sleep as it is (ok, I do sleep a lot, but I need it!) and don't have time for it. But what I really love about Disney movies is the simplicity of the intentions, and the message they really send. For example, The Lion King. What's the point of the story? Good conquers evil. Plain and simple. But what about Cinderella? I get from that movie that a girl can follow her dreams, no matter what kind of background or person she is. She went from the lowest lows to a princess! But the main reason I love Cinderella (and Beauty and the Beast, and Aladin, and Sleeping Beauty, and any story that has a princess) is that there is always a prince charming waiting for them who is their soul mate. In the real world, this never happens. I ran across a quote on Facebook (yes, I am a Facebook creeper), and it said something like: "Disney movies give girls hope everywhere that there is a prince charming waiting for them." I know I just got that wrong, but I don't feel like looking it up. You get the point. But anyway, it was just meaning that no matter who you are, there is always someone out there who you can be with the rest of your life who matches you perfectly. Well, I want to believe that, and I might believe it one day, but right now, I don't. I feel that a girl can spend a whole life searching, but maybe because she didn't go to the store one day because she was feeling sick she won't meet that person. I just feel as a little girl, we believe that there is always a prince out there with all our heart, but when we grow up, we face the truth. And right now, the truth is my prince is still out there somewhere, waiting...

Homework!!

Oh golly, I feel as if I haven't had time to breathe the last week! I know I can't complain since I was not in Christmas With Wartburg, but still! I had to write 2 papers this week, do 2 projects, do misc homework, and maintain sleep. But overall, I had a nice relaxing weekend. Most people would say I was a loner, but I had some deep talks with some great people, so it worked out for the best. One of the things that I don't like about being at college is that I don't know what some people's families are like. I mean, I sat down and talked to someone for 4 hours about her life at home, and it was great! It was great to see where someone comes from, and not just who they are as a person here. I mean, it is important and everything to see the person as who they are, but I found out so many things that I didn't know before. She's from Canada for cryin' out loud! I think that is pretty cool in my book.. :). Wow, this is a really random blog about many random things..might as well continue with the randomness.

So I talked to someone else about her life and what was happening back home. She described many situations that applied to my life as well, and I felt really connected to her for the first time since coming here. We talked about life here as well, and situations between "friends" of ours. I put that in quotes because they have been complete jerkfaces to her the last month, and they still are! I mean, if you don't talk to someone for a month, how can you say negative things about that person? I just feel they are jumping to conclusions without finding out about her. This isn't the first time she has came to me with a problem, and I am really happy she feels comfortable enough with me to be that open with me. And I know she will listen to me if I have any problems (I have already had a few, and she is a great listener). She understands if I have any problems, and it's nice to have someone to "girl talk" with, besides a person who is 2 hours away who doesn't know anyone I am talking about.

Ethan, you saved my life

I know Ethan won't read this, and I will thank him tomorrow, but THANK YOU! You saved my life tonight. :)

Anyway, in Matt Townsley's arguement, it seems to me as the reader that he is making statements and stating facts when he has no evidence to support it. This is a major flaw that we have been looking at in IS class regarding global warming, but I feel it applies to this too. As Walter Bouzard refutes, "I was interested to discover that Townsley's views were not informed." So Bouzard goes on to, how do you say, completely bash Townsley's arguement. Overall, I feel Townsley was just trying to get this statement out to the public, and was making what little information he had fit into what he wanted it to say. It just seemed foolish, and not thought out on Townsley's part.

Forgetfulness

I wonder if forgetfulness is even a word...but I think that is how you describe me in the last week. I almost forgot to blog tonight because I was reading Prey, but I'm lucky I remembered right before I fell asleep. Anyway, I loved Thanksgiving break. :) It made me really miss being home, and seeing parts of my family I don't get to see very often. My cousin and I are very close in age (only a month apart), so growing up we were very close. My family even lived at her house for a while when I was 9. Anyway, she goes to Central, so it was great to catch up with her and what it is like over in Pella. She had a hard time adjusting to college, but now it is all she talks about. I still remember when we would stay up late (until 1 in the morning, which really isn't that late anymore) and play Sims. Oh, we loved that game. But I just remembered I forgot to bring up dominoes...crud! Oh well, maybe I'll remember over Christmas break. But I forget what else we are supposed to blog about, so I'm gonna go creep on people's blogs until I remember.. :)

Who Knew?

So, from my earlier blogs, you can tell I keep things to myself. I don't like discussing what is going on or what is bothering me. But over this last week, I have found out it actually helps to get your feelings out there. I have vocalized my opinions and feelings (not as much as some people want me to) but enough for them to understand what is really going on. And when you first meet someone, you never know if that person is going to be the one you spill everything to. Well, practically everything, but you get my point. But he actually listened to what I had to say, and gave me advice on the subject. He helped me realize that no matter what happens, I'm my own person. I can do my own thing while the other person does theirs. I don't need that person there 24/7 to help me. And he also gave me apple cider, which just tasted like warmed up apple juice. I mean, really? Warm apple juice? I guess there wasn't enough cinnamon in it, and you can't just add your own cinnamon. But anyway, thank you for listening to me. :) You really helped get me through that night.