People and Problems

Why do some people feel the need to completely ignore other people? I can understand disliking someone or sometimes not having the time to talk, but why can't you say a simple 'Hi!' then move on? I mean, is it too much to ask to get a simple 'Hey, how was your day?' every once in a while? I mean really! And if consider someone to be your friend, don't ignore them! I get it that you are upset with her and that she is a little annoying at times, but really? It hurts her, and you know it. Stop being dumb about it, and talk to her! And when you talk to her, don't sit on the other side of the room on your computer. When you see she is crying and getting emotional because she wants to be friends with you, don't ignore her. See what she has to say. It might be worth listening.

Quote

I found a quote the other day and thought I would share it. :)

--Sometimes, that girl who seems so strong, who never lets what people say bother her, who smiles and laughs with her friends all the time, is really the girl who, deep down, is falling to pieces.


At times in my life, this was me. I've always been the person people come to when they have a problem, whether it be boys, friends, or something else. I've always put up the happy, cheery face, no matter what's happening. People don't understand how I really feel. I hide my true emotions and don't let go. I guess I've learned this from not telling people how I really felt about my dad being arrested when I was 9, or never feeling like people understood what I was going through. Yeah, I had my family, but I just kept it in for some reason. And right now, I couldn't tell you that reason. But I'm starting to let that go. I'm starting to tell people how I truly feel, and you know what, it actually helps. :) I know, I know, you're probably thinking I'm crazy for just now realizing this, but talking helps. It truly does. And even though I act happy all the time, and am always cheerful, the truth is, I'm sometimes not. But people who know me, and truly know me, see this, and try and help me. And that is what I call true friendship.

Art

I loved Fall Break. I got to see all my friends, visit with family, and SLEEP! My favorite part of my weekend is probably really selfish, but it was definately working on my stained glass in Art Club. In my high school, I was in Art Club, where you can go and basically make anything you want. A.C. was at the same time as volleyball, basketball, and softball, so I could never go. I took art classes, but it wasn't the same as A.C. During A.C., I could work on what I wanted for 2 straight hours and not be bothered. I love sitting down and watching my work come to life. I get in a type of zone, where nothing bothers me. I feel like it is my one way to escape what is happening in my life. I've missed that since high school, and I would give anything to be able to do that all the time. Art means the world to me, but as a teacher, I always felt I couldn't make a career out of it. What I really want when I settle down when I get older is an art studio, with eisels and paints and brushes and a potter's wheel and maybe even a kiln (and a lot more!). I've drawn since I've been here, but it doesn't have the same feeling as finishing my first real painting. (It's a painting of a starving boy from Africa). Art opens up a whole new world to me, and I really wish I could just go paint right now! :)